Untold

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Days in college were as monotonous as they were before. Every day I used to go and do nothing. It was just my second semester. A little heartbreak was what my heart was suffering from after my first crush was already into someone else. I was sure I had no one else who could capture my attention in the whole college until that club meeting.

I met you there for the first time. You were the one who laughed out loud when the professor joked about me eating a plate full of chicken on a national holiday and not attending college for the cultural program. You were the one who was made to be with me coordinating things for my very first play. I wouldn't say I felt something for you at first sight. It was your super cute Shih Tzu who took away my heart. Of Course, I remember how gentlemanly you talked me into taking your number and how sweetly you told me to contact you when I might need your help. You turned out to be the best senior I could ask for. I remember how I pitched in a storyline that had a dog. And after we exchanged numbers you changed your profile photo into one with the Shih Tzu. That might be coincidental but I refrain from accepting.

I obviously took it as a sign. Poor me is a hopeless romantic. I can not help it. I worked on the play despite having exams, came with doubt, and texted you. You helped me. After my first draft, you were the very first person to praise me for my work. For that praise, I am never forgetting you. After the weekend you disappeared, another senior came in at your place. I really wished to see you, but you were nowhere to be found. I was told that you went to a national competition. I thought things ended there.

I made friends with your roommates. They were equally kind, supportive, and encouraging. I learned so much from you and your friends. I admire you all for that. But you were nowhere to be in the story. It was only us who were missing from the group photo because I really did bunk college for a plate full of chicken, that photo is and will be posted every year without us in it. As Time passed, I became a permanent team member of your friend. He always had me as a writer and an actor. You became an acquaintance way too dear to me. I had my ways of sensing you and finding you…

The strange thing was I never saw you for 6 months before that meeting. And after that, I saw you almost every day. I wished to talk to you or grow our friendship, but all we did was a typical introverted "Hi", where just our eyebrows moved with little smiles on our faces. By then, I had known so much more about you and your hard work on your project.  And that drew me towards you. Several unnamed and uncategorized feelings started to grow stronger in me.

Every time those telepathic meets made me believe that there was something more than you being just my college crush. I remember the day when you denied working with anyone for play stating your busy competitive schedule. Until I became associated with your friend's team. I remember how you came in the hallway just after I turned back to say that you would act. I remember those rehearsals we had together, your improv jokes, and your dedicated inputs to make our play better. I remember the look in your eyes when you saw me all dressed up on the day of our play. We had our constraints and we never could bond, we were stretched apart by our schedules and timings.

I remember you calling out my name from the other end of the room. I remember how happy and elated I was. Every time I felt that I was no one to you. Or I felt that you don't even remember me something happened to make me forcefully think otherwise. Constantly getting my hopes up was a beautiful feeling to experience. When you asked me casually about how my life was? I realized that you might be my lucky charm. Because suddenly after that little 'Oh nice!' of mine, my life was better than before.

I felt so much and so wonderful that I wrote everything inside me into a paper. Just before my exam, sitting in the library all I could do was think about you and all the merry little coincidences that I had. I saw you getting into the exam hall before, I knew you kept your bag outside. So I gathered all my strength from all the lives I have ever had and stepped out in the hallway and stuffed the letter in one of your bag's side pockets. The silence made scribbling sounds with the occasional turning of pages as all the students in your slot were writing to pass. Lucky for me, I never shared an exam hall with you because I might have failed the subject. 

I had a very strong adrenaline rush, all my memories from after that is blurry. But I remember I saw you talking to your friends after being out of the hall. I still wonder if my anonymous letter ever reached you? What if I stuffed it in someone else's bag? What if all these times you have known it was me? Because it was written in the spur of the moment, and I left decent hints to join the dots and reach the conclusion that was "me". Yet no one ever found me. The letter never even reached social media. No one knows about it except the people who saw me red and palpitating like a wildfire. They knew exams never made me nervous, so I had to tell them what I did. I might have believed that this incident was just in my imagination but I had a person who helped me and so I had someone to tell that it all was real. But my lovely letter went into the deep dark void of the universe unaccounted.

You are my senior, I knew you would leave before but things accelerated, and before I could lose my complete hopes, there was a gap due to the sudden pandemic. I never got the strength to confess. As far as I know myself, I never would. This was not our story. It was my story. Everything was from my side you were probably totally unaware. And that is okay. 

Now that your convocation ceremony is done, and the one string of connection between us is gone. I have nothing to say. So I wrote this anonymous letter yet again just to thank you for being there. For being the gentleman you were. For it was because of you my college life became different from being monotonous. It was because of you I grew close to my friend, now a soulmate to me, as I was helped to get all your photos from social media. And also your background check, you know friends are there for something like this. 

I won't call this love or something cliché, this was something I will leave unnamed. And the story untold. I will never miss you but will surely remember you forever. And maybe at different crossroads of life, I will greet you with the same smile and admiration, wishing you love, health, and all good. 😇